7 Years ago today...

I heard Jaden's heartbeat for the very first time!

I know it's crazy that I remember that but just know this, I have a good reason that matters only to me!

I love you Jaders!

Here's to "Ex's" AND their "Wives"

Why am I so nice? Why do I go out of MY way to meet my Ex Husband with our Son so he doesn't have to drive so far? Why do I help him out and keep him on weekends he has unexpected plans come up? Why do I lend an ear or shoulder when he needs someone to talk to ABOUT his 1st Wife and current one?

My Ex Husband is so hard to get along with, I guess you figured that one out already! Anyway, I sware the minute we were "seperated" he was on the prowl for another victim. In 15 years he was married 2 times, engaged 2, 3 kids and married AGAIN. Ummmm do you think it was all me?

My frustration could go on and on, should I really be blogging this?...Probably not.

Does it make me feel better?...Absolutely!!

So, long story short. A few weeks ago when he came to pick up Jack our conversation went like this:

Me: "The babysitter told me he has a nasty cough, there are other kids at daycare that are sick and he might need to go to the Doctor."

Ex: "Great, sigh, I'll keep an eye on him.

And that was that!

Saturday came around and I wanted to see how Jack was feeling so I called (Ex) the cell a couple times and he never answered. After a few hours I decided to call the house. Here is how this conversation went:

Me: "Hi, is Kenzie there?"

Ex's Wife: "No."

Me: "I was just wondering how Jack was feeling."

Ex's Wife: "He has a terrible cough and a fever."

Me: "A fever???"

Ex's Wife: "It's just low grade, 101."

Me: "Are you guys going to take him to the Doctor?"

Ex's Wife: "If he gets worse we will take him."

Me: "Well let me know, Thanks, bye."

Ex's Wife: "Bye"

Tonight, I could sense a little animosity. I asked Kenzie to stop treating me like crap, within minutes it was an argument. He was saying that I have no place treating his Wife like crap and that they can make decent decisions about Jacks health... I was so pissed. When have I EVER treated her like crap, surely not a few weeks ago (about the 3rd time I have even talked to her.)

I know this sounds so dumb BUT I always stick up for my Ex Husband and his Wife. I have always liked her and NEVER talked bad about her. In fact, I have said several times "he is lucky to have her."

Oh well, I guess to get anywhere with people like that, you just have to be a SUPER BITCH.

So, now that my "short" story is "long" and I have vented to all my friends and the whole blogging world, I will sign off saying: Super Bitch... here I come!

My CRAZY kids....

Here is Jaden and his "BEST" friend (my Dad) after his last baseball game. He loves my parents so much that he NEVER wants to come home :( I called him today after work and this is how it went:

Me: "Hi bud, how are ya?"
Jaden: "Good"
Me: "Whatcha up too?"
Jaden: "Playin'"
Me: "Oh, do you want me to come pick you up?"
Jaden: "NO, I think I'll miss Grandma too much"

I was so sad, he loves them more than me!!!
Jaden and his "fathers day" shirt!

Okay... I didn't think I would EVER let my kid do this, much less... take a picture of it!
(Jack in his jammies, sandals, backpack and yes...swim goggles!)
He loves these ugly goggles and wants to wear them everywhere, I let him when we are home because it's easier than fighting him sometimes. By the way... the thing I never thought I'd do, CUT THE FEET OFF MY KID's FEETIE JAMMIES! I guess it just goes to show, we'll do ANYTHING for our kids!

Here is another one of Jack (wearing his goggles) cooking his own dinner!! Everything that is small, he thinks is his.


This is what he cooked for dinner. It's a bbq'd hotdog and some cut up ham that he just HAD to boil on his own!

Lifeboats...

Life is a shipwreck but we must not forget to sing in the lifeboats.

Do you sometimes wish your life was different??? Do you wish you were someone else, or had a different job??? Maybe you wish you could change the past??? Do you not appreciate things the way you should???...
This is how I have been feeling lately. I know most of the "Thanks" should be paid to
Aunt Flow! (Why she comes to stay for those few days EVERY month, but during pregnancy I don't know) BUT, can all the animosity be blamed on her? I have been so emotional lately; upset, mean, nice, happy, sad, crying, laughing, lonely, overwhelmed etc at any moment. My poor Husband has been such a trooper, he's getting good at walking on egg shells! Thanks to those who have NOT said "what is wrong with you lately," Just so you know... this is not acceptable. If I freakin' knew what was wrong I would have control of it! ANYWAY, in the midst of all these feelings... I have lost something (besides my mind) my ability to look at the positive.
We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.
Okay so enough of the BUMMED OUT BLOG!

Wednesday night I decided that Jaden and Jack needed new shoes. Who knew that a qucik trip to Payless would be the start to a SHOPPING SPREE! Among the things I bought was the Sex and the City soundtrack. I LOVE it! It has helped so much to calm me down and think happy thoughts! The funniest thing about this totally girly CD, Jack LOVES it too! Everytime we get in the car he begs "I wanna listen to my song" I also got the Now 28 CD it is so good too!

Well, I know this blog is kinda here there and everywhere but at least I kept my promise to blog more often!

Love to all,
Jadie & Co.

WOW... lot's of pictures to catch me up!

This was our "home away from home" for a few days!!

All 6 kids (there were more of them than us!)

Uh... I think I'm a little too big!

Cheeser (My cute Husband playing Zim Zam)

My handsom Jack

All smiles, Jaden

Gary, Greg and Jen in the mine. (Relax Jeri, we made it out just fine!)

Shooting Trap... I ROCK

Jen and I playing Zim Zam!

Gary and Dad, starting the fire.

Double, Decker, Dutch Oven... (can you say that 3 times fast?)

The boys and I playing in the AWESOME track we made.

No...I'm not "squatting"!!

My lil' motorcycle baby, Jaden.

Jack loved the 4 wheelers!

Jaden, Jack and Reagan boating the weekend before Memorial.

Jaden, Jack and Griz boating!

Jaden and Jack hangin' by our pool!

My NERD helping with yard work!

GRADUATION ~The tassel's worth the hassle! ~

This is to all my loved ones graduating this year... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, YOU DID IT!

"I hope your dreams take you to the corners of your smiles, to the highest of your hopes, to the windows of your opportunities, and to the most special places your heart has ever known."

May in a Nutshell... (well, at least half of it)

MAY
"Sometimes I feel that life is passing me by, not slowly either, but with ropes of steam and spark-spattered wheels and a hoarse roar of power or terror."

May started off a little slow and somber, lets just skip the first week and a ½!

We got our back yard in order ie. Weeds pulled, flowers planted, garden planted, lawn mowed and swimming pool opened!

Mother's day was great! The boys were not home in the morning so Gary and I went shopping. We went to Shopko, Costco and Khols. We had so much fun, (he is like having a best girlfriend sometimes!) Jaden made me the cutest bracelet, a magnet and card at school. Jack colored me a picture and gave me a Marigold in a cup. Gary bought me some new Harley attire (preparing me for our big bike trip in July) then we had my Dad and Grandma over for a nice dinner and the Jazz game.

I started my new shift on the 6th, 7 – 3:00 with Sunday/Monday's off. I love it! Jaden and Jack are doing much better with me working 8 hours vs the 12's I was before.
Gary started his new run on the 12th. He is now driving to Wamsutter, Wyoming leaving at 3:45 am and getting home around 2. It is so nice to have him home with us in the evenings. To gain the 6 to 7 hours of sleep he can function on, he tries to be in bed, asleep by 7:30. He hates turning in so early but I love and usually, I get the kids in by 8:30 and I am asleep by 9!

Jack was sick, puking his little guts out for over a week, it started May 15th. After 3 days of no eating/drinking, and a developed fever we were off to the instacare. The Doctor was amazing. She tested him for EVERYTHING. While we were waiting for the numerous test results he received a large bag of fluids to re hydrate him. The results came back normal but because he did not "perk up" with the fluids the decision was made to send us to Primary Children's for observation. Gary and I arrived at the hospital ER around 10:30 and didn't get seen until around 1:00. During our wonderful stay in the waiting room Jack slept in our arms, no puking and no whining. When we finally saw a Doctor we said "they sent us here from the instacare for observation, we have observed him for hours and we want to go home." The Doctor agreed and home we headed! The next morning, while Jack rested, I had to deal with work. They were so great to me, helping me out by covering my shifts for 8 of the days I was scheduled. The puking continues for several days and all they could come up with was "viral infection" (go figure)! By the 22nd he was finally coming around, his appetite was back and in full force!
We decided that because I was off for the rest of the weekend (Memorial) we would head to the desert and get some fresh air!
We left Friday and returned Monday. We spent our time with Jaden & Jack, our good friends, Greg and Jen, their 2 kids and both their friends. We had a blast 4 wheelin', playin' games, trap shooting, cooking and just visiting.
Tuesday was a bit rough… both Gary and I were getting back into the routine of work which meant early dinners, early showers, and early bed times! The boys on the other hand, they did just great!
During the last few days of May and the first few in June we will be wrapping up baseball, attending "both" our boys graduations (Jaden ~ Kindergarten and Kyle ~ High school) and preparing for summer. Well I guess that brings us up to date, I am going to give it my BEST effort to get in the hang of this… I PROMISE!

P.S. I will add pictures in a little bit!

Love,

Jadie & Co